I’m scared to go to the doctor if I feel like something is wrong with my body. I don’t want to get tests done. I don’t want to find out if I’m sick. I don’t want to know if I’m dying of something with no cure. I realize this is the most irresponsible thing I could do. My dad might have survived cancer if he had gone to the doctor earlier about his problems. So if I was to learn anything it should be that I need to be super proactive about going to the doctor and getting check-ups, right? Except, I feel the complete opposite. I don’t want to know about anything
that could put my life on hold.