I still can’t believe he is gone. I keep thinking that when I go home for Spring Break I will find him waiting for me.
I have such a big crush on Benjamin Bratt right...
Just watched Miss Congeniality. :P
E-mail from my mom.
“Dear Pei-Sister: How are you? you two back to school, even mom miss you a lot but I know you are all busy with your school work. You may be need a quiet place to read through this email, you may be cry a little bit or cry out, but it is OK because it is already past. I think you two still remember August, 2010 I went back to Chicago that because your father told me he was dinologize (this...
Embo: He Lives In You. →
embo89: There are times I’m convinced that all of my life lessons can be learned in The Lion King. Don’t go looking for danger? Check. How to put on a good show? Check!! (You can be a big pig, too! Huh!) Try new foods? Check!! But most importantly, The Lion King helps me… Love you, Em!! Our lunch today was exactly what I needed. I’m so lucky to have you in my life...
Drop It Like It's Hot
Last week I couldn’t wait to come back to school. I wanted to immerse and occupy myself with tasks to keep my mind off of things. I thought that was the best solution for me, but I was so wrong. Much of this past week was spent feeling overwhelmed, stressed, and ill. I came back to two exams and 4 meetings by Wednesday. Luckily, my professors were more than understanding so on exam will be...
Today I realized that my dad loved me for exactly who I am, and it wasn’t an obligatory love. As I replay memories of conversations in my head I finally see that my dad truly loved me as the person that I am and didn’t want anything else for me except for happiness. I think it’s because that in my curious eyes and inquiring mind my dad saw himself. I could not have had a better...
The intro to Wiz Khalifa’s “When I’m Gone” is sweet. The song itself is getting me through tonight.
Last week people just kept telling me that I had aged ten years. Not in looks, but in life. I definitely feel it. My body is tired and my mind seems dull. I sleep for a few hours at a time just to wake with a start feeling unsettled until I realize things are fine, and I go back to sleep. I think last week just really took every little piece of me out of, well, me. I spent the night of the 12th...
Laughing At My Nightmare!: A Will To Survive →
laughingatmynightmare: I’m 17 and contemplating the benefits of cremation while being driven to the hospital to die. My eyes are stuck on the empty McDonald’s cup sitting in the front console of my parent’s minivan. Momentarily, my mind clears. I look up for a moment and stare vacantly at the highway unfolding up…
Today was the first day I had broken down since the memorial service on Wednesday. Thursday morning I sobbed, as quietly as I could as to not wake my sister, but since then I haven’t cried at all. I’m kind of surprised I lasted this long. I knew this moment was inevitable. I know that moments like this will keep happening for probably a few months. I am just so so terribly sad. My...
Not funny, dad.
It was late morning on Friday when my sister, mom, godmother, dad’s caretaker, and I went to the funeral home to pick up my dad’s ashes. We brought him home and were ready to take him out of the box and set up him up in the room my dad had dedicated to his parents. We had already set up all the flowers from the memorial in the room. The room looked beautiful covered in flowers. The...
"OHMYGOSH I DROPPED DAD!"
What my sister said over the phone when she accidentally dropped her keepsake urn. Kind of scary, but very funny. LOL
I’m scared that death will make me cold and bitter. After my dad’s brother’s passing I think my dad had a length of time when he was just very angry with the world. Life just wasn’t fair. Why couldn’t the doctors save his brother? That phase ended when my dad was diagnosed with cancer. He stayed optimistic, at least outwardly. Whenever he was feeling up to it he went...
Sister: Dad won't be there to walk us down the...
I have been thinking about this since Winter when I found out the cancer had spread to my dad’s entire spine. It makes me so sad to know that my sister has already thought of this as well.
Mrs. Lin, an aunt not by blood, but by years and years of friendship between our families, approached me Monday at the hospital and told me that my dad always my sister and I as priority #1. He had told everyone that he was going to live to see me graduate college in May. However, last Tuesday he found out he only had two weeks left to live- he wasn’t going to make it to my graduation. Mrs....
莊志純 (spoken in Mandarin), 志純 (spoken in Taiwanese), Chih-Shun, Jerry, Daddy. It doesn’t matter what we call him- he is equally loved by all of us. Well, except for my sister because she claims she loves him the most. I would actually like to say I probably love him the most, but I know better than to argue with my baby sister. My dad was a great man, and I am sad to say that I had only...
today is going to be one helluva uphill battle.
in high stress and urgent situations i don’t panic and can remain calm. i breath. i act with deliberation and care. i don’t cry, or i dare myself not to. i am patient. i don’t yell and i don’t get frustrated. i give directions firmly, but not meanly. i am brave. i don’t shy away or feel repulsed. i feel the need to help and to heal. i am present. mentally and...
my heart. my soul.
i am broken.
buying time. hospice.
nurses are saints.
Five Lessons About How To Treat People →
im-kristina: arainymelody: sillynaa: 1. First Important Lesson - “Know The Cleaning Lady” During my second month of college, our professor gave us a pop quiz. I was a conscientious student and had breezed through the questions, until I read the last one: “What is the first name of the woman who cleans the school?” Surely this was some kind of joke. I had seen the cleaning woman several...
joannie: (via “Puppy Conan” is so cute it hurts)