peitience is a virtue

You make my dreams come true
And I love
All the small things that you do, like Blink 182
You make my days go better and the way
That the sun is shining through girl it’s all because of you

And I know it’s tough right now but you’ll get it together
And just know that I am here through all kinds of weather
I wont ever leave your side day or night or whenever
But right now I gotta say

That you’re a
Show stopper you are so hot and I can’t get you off my mind
Show stopper you’re a jaw dropper
When I see you in the lights
You make everything alright
And I know that I’d be fine if I had you

You make me wanna dance
Cuz I’m happy but just know that I can’t dance
So I’m sorry in advance
And
You make the stars shine brighter and the way
That the moonlight hits ur eyes makes me wanna be your guy
And I know it’s tough right now now but we’ll get it together
And just know that I am here through all kinds of weather
I wont ever leave your side day or night or whenever
But at this moment I just gotta say, I just gotta

That you’re a
Show stopper you are so hot and I can’t get you off my mind
Show stopper you’re a jaw dropper
When I see you in the lights
You make everything alright
And I know that I’d be fine if I had you

You make me feel like I’m flying
No one can stop me from feelin
The way I do now
There’s no denying
That you got me goin and now I’m falling

Show stopper you just so hot and I can’t get you off my mind
Show stopper you’re a jaw dropper
When I see you in the lights
You make everything alright
And I know that I’d be fine if I had you
If I had you

Show stopper you’re a jaw dropper
When I see you in the lights
You make everything alright
And I know that I’d be fine if I had you

“Showstopper” by AJ Rafael

I have faith in you.

So much faith.

They told me to have more faith.

They told me to not give up, just yet.

We play pretend. It’s fun…and funny. It makes people wonder, but we just make eye contact and chuckle at how good we are at playing pretend, fooling everybody. 

But sometimes, I think you’re too good at playing pretend that you fool me, too. 

And I really do, I’m not saying it just to be like “oh ho, so the same!” because this is something I wish we both didn’t have to go through. 

” sick
of studying for a major i have no passion for

of studying for classes that don’t interest me

of being a victim of asian parents

of lacking internal motivation

of lacking direction

of not knowing what i want

of not knowing my passions” 

yup. quite exactly how i feel.

i’m not sure what happened to me this year. i always knew what i wanted to be since i was a kid, and then this year doubt started seeping in. i denied it. but nope, it’s settled in and i can’t hide from it anymore. i’m lost. i don’t know what i want to do. my parents think i’m lowering my goal, but truth is i don’t even think i have a goal anymore. what am i working towards? what is this education for? time will tell, i hope.

anyways, reading your posts just reminded me of myself. i can understand your frustration, maybe not exactly, but in general. i want to say “don’t worry, you’ll find what it is you want and what you’re meant to do” but how can i say that when i can’t prove that? it’s just something i tell myself to give myself some room to breath.

if you haven’t figured it out yet, Allen this is to you. lol :P

hmm. yep, that’s all i really have to say. i don’t think there was a point. i guess this was me saying, “hey, i’m in the same boat, so the…same?”